solstice

since the miserable performance by france the show of football have lost all luster for me this may be good for evolution of little girls but have you seen those men plunging in quest of a free kick generously awarded stumbling and falling just in case having been touched maybe by opponent for the possession of the ball I am ashamed for them and for referee that too rarely call the fault of plunging because serious intention judgment and should draw the yellow card anyway sun is showing again this morning after nearly shortest night but it will rain tonight storm announced for the end of the day I am supposed to bring bicycle to inspection check-up fine tuning and I would make my friend benson my executor I go to chinalovematch barely now just to see occasional messages or some kiss but economical impotency leave a sour taste I thought about casting out this whole china affair but as the world whirling can not change this is important cultural adventure plus some mystery exploration not in a hurry tough for those characters 汉字 resisting my dispersed attempts in learning immersions would be the best learning situation intense short period of time with definitive gains for as long as I could dream that time was on my side almost nothing seemed bloody serious after all how could I regain this ingenuity now? if not of course by the virtue of a new love not erasing precedent sheets in the novel of my life but writing new chapters I continue work of mourning in these writings is there a new jacques awaiting at the end of this period? why not? am I not old enough for maturing? as two bad seasons wont erase the good one kept in memories for future purpose not to prevent cleaning the mind for fresh air new tune hearing in good mood new waves discovering like anew another nice being you want absolute love also?! ooh! that would take some time

bathing into sunshine on balcony I watch new buildings in construction where I am going to live next season autumn some of cheerful memories associated with orange yellow colors in my mind and I do not wonder why just watching the game also orange men netherlands just scored a goal against japanese good defending and acrobatic goalkeeper sneijder in the 53th jean ferrat signing in french nice song of hope in love at the radio "la femme est l'avenir de l'homme" woman is the future of man lyrics goes that way: tout dans le couple va changer d'une manière irréversible le poète a toujours raison qui voit plus loin que l'horizon et le futur est son royaume face aux autres générations je déclare avec aragon la femme est l'avenir de l'homme here simple translation: life in the couple will change for good and definitively poet is always right who sees farther than horizon and future is his kingdom facing other generations I declare with aragon woman is future of man yeah! new life is in order in a new place bringing in old memories but no ancient bad mood ther is still enough resources energy and health in me to bring to life new inspiration and better accomplishments I might even take a regular job! zen attitude today everything seems to be going better in full sunny daylight I read sollers le voyageur du temps bernard werber le miroir de cassandre la rencontre roman érotique by françoise rey les boîtes de ma femme by korean author eun hee-kyung

in the afternoon the rain has cleaned the atmosphere bringing fresh air I made me a gorgeous omelet for diner with three eggs sauerkrout spices olive oil milk and cheese I didn't had breakfast only tea to shake nervous system but soon after dinner I became very tired and sleepy went in bed first listening some radio but soon fell asleep lightly for nearly two hours I went up this morning very early at 5h30 after not enough good sleeping time when awakening this afternoon around 4 I sensed penis half erected just physical normal reaction fading out and thinking of nobody after few minutes I can think again and read more books so didn't went to offer my bicycle to inspection searched the internet to see that depopulation in russia amounted to 5 millions less in 2007 compared to 1992 and expected to decline further but slower in coming years well under 145 millions for so much land low density heavily polluted though mafias and authoritarian state don't care about poor people smuggle bad vodka and worst now dropping in population stabilized but this country exporting women can't regain pride and growth apart from economic so-called profits mainly from oil and natural gas massive human failure this mismanaged turn of events 180 degrees from precedent regime from centralized managed production to fully chaotic liberalized market economy but hungry again at 9 I have to think to prepare supper notwithstanding historical tragedy hitler would have been delighted who tried to reduce this once strong people into slavery but western world should mourn this catastrophe because there will be a price to pay and europe also is weakening now