solstice

21.06 thinking further I find now that searching only for perfect love is a grave mistake that prevent success in finding real good love I part once and for all from this mistake now that shows too much pride maybe and I am still very sorry that I can not help some special person I loved so much who seems forever entangled in tragic problems standing for absolute is a dangerous task wrong for practical means I acknowledge that nothing is perfect on this earth thinking otherwise is dangerous if not foolish I see better now and I will abstain from that kind of mistake in future because actual love needs understanding in depth in human nature and not only and exclusive and grandiose illusions ideal attitude is lethal when pushed to the extreme now my lord God I ask you give me a sweet baby nice girl to love that she could open completely for me that I will be able to understand her very deeply so I could love her with the bottom of my heart and help her in many ways to improve in her shortcomings defects or any weaknesses so I could help her to heal injuries from the past and enhance confidence in herself that we could together foresee better future and she will be truly mine as I will be hers for that to come I thank you God oh! mysterious you said and even kept posted for a long time that this solstice would be surely better than the precedent yes it is better but now just because I escaped your dangerous spell life goes on and sometimes feels like every day is a new life to experience and enjoy in time kingdom of a child!

From Lao Tze - Dao de Jing

24. Indulgence
Straighten yourself and you will not stand steady;
Display yourself and you will not be clearly seen;
Justify yourself and you will not be respected;
Promote yourself and you will not be believed;
Pride yourself and you will not endure.

These behaviours are wasteful, indulgent,
And so they attract disfavour;
Harmony avoids them.

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